hollow voices ~

Been awhile huh since i updated. Well well giving the fact that school starts at 9.45(latest) and ends at 4.00pm(earliest). Spending after school hours soccer or work and sometimes lepaks. So that explains me updating uh.

Have to start improving in time management already. Mine sucks. With a hectic schedule and my time management. No wonder i am kinda NOT productive *being honest here ehem2*. Need to buck up with school already. Still plenty of CE points to go. TEST. and daily grades. DAMN!. i hate studying.

I noticed one thing though, people notice life in many different ways. ALOT. But why people tend to look and live by days NOW or the past. I bet even you see some of the people around u living and sobbing over their past. MOST just lives by the day. and a HANDFUL lives FORWARD. When we talk about life and living. Whats your OPINION about it?.. DO YOU LIVE TO DIE?.. LIVE TO ENJOY?.. LIVE COZ GOD MADE YOU?.. Whats your motive?. What do you look to achieve?.. FOR ME?.. haha.. im confused with what i want too.. im human am i not?..

dissapointment ~

Well she never fails to get me hooked.. but despite the blossoms of days then comes the disappointing weekends.. FCUK!.. Staurday – Had soccer match lost 3-2.. -.- .. could say i tried to play my best.. wasn’t effective though cause didnt really had any key roles.. get the ball whack it out.. but tiring.. ran like a dog.. played right winder.. right back.. left back.. hahaha.. wooohooo.. losing the excess fats.. amcam bleh jadi mcm taylor lautner ak?.. XD

Sunday – THE WORST weekend.. waiting for rashid at interchange, so me and shazni decided to smoke lorh.. then usually we wouldnt walk to the nearest dust-bin so we were just on top of the longkang, so we just threw our cigg buds inside it.. seconds later “excuse me, I’m from NEA *showing his card*……” well then we both know what was to come.. so i think its my second time. now im awaiting the later for to tell me the date to go to court -.- … After the samans.. yet another dissapointing defeat.. WTH!.. i hate people who just talk yet no walk.. i am spontaneous BUT.. when everything is planned out nicely but it doesnt happen due to SOMEONE being late or something.. its fcuking irritating..

And recently i noticed something, some people think they are the best.. they are Mr.Perfect.. the talk very PRO.. but they play DAMN SUCKY.. i mean diffrentiating between JOKE and SERIOUS. i could tell “he” was talking seriously.. i would call it bullshit.. like want to go up to his face and fucking tell him “hey, look in the mirror bitch.. there’s a word on your forehead that says ASSHOLE.” but this is life aint it.. we face these kinda people everyday but what to do.. i mean i have my own flaws.. sometimes i do “mcm phm”.. but what i say can be jokes. .

before i end i have something to say.. i may joke about things.. but sometimes it seriously an honest opinion about you.. so when you hear me joking try to read between the lines.. im putting it as a joke so you wont take it too hard but.. im hoping u realise so that u wont be bringing that attitude again or more people might hate u.

HEY YOU!.. chat with me everytime u online lerr.. it makes my days in school colourful or at least it makes me smile from start till end of class XD

Getting tired. -.- *yawns*

Hey peeps!.. Now that hari raya is over no more collecting of $$$ huh!.. lol.. i got total of near $300 yay-ness!!!.. hahaha!.. maklumlah im still young *ehem2*..

Nowadays i feel damn tired!!.. i have school!.. work!.. seldom have ENOUGH time to lepaks and chill out with friends. I do have the time uh BUT NOT ENOUGH. haha!. time passes so fast when enjoying and yet so slow when ur studying or working. These day i feel damn lazy to go to school. Hmmm. But YOUR my source of motivation *winks2*. Everytime i come to school i look for u on the msn.. cant wait to just joke around with u.. well my daily dose of addiction kan2.. *ehem2*.. without u, i guess i would have skipped school plenty of times huh.. cheyy THANK YOU!.. today TEGUR me again k.. DON’T hesitate tau!.. lol!.. anyways.. im not the only happy seeing u online RIGHT.. vice versa too right? *smiling wide* =D

SYAMIM!!!!.. this one is for you.. DUDE its time u make your call.. I’ve done my part as a friend.. I gave my opinion your girlfriend took it as an influence for you?.. WTH!.. haha.. well, i guess shit happens when ur trying to help.. but dont worry bro i never regretted any single moment.. but i said what had to be said.. i did what i did.. what came out from my mouth was pure honest opinions from the questions you gave me.. haha.. if she thinks i’m influencing u then let it be. you have to understand no point teaching ones that are dumb.. once a dumb always a dumb unless ready to admit the mistakes they did.. tol ak abg MIM!.. hahaha.. seems like she’s just digging and digging to worsen the matter huh.. hmmm.. i thought MATURED couples give and take.. and they DONOT dig2 in the matter.. to worsen things.. sometimes i dont really even know if PEOPLE UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF LOVE.. for certain guys love is sex.. hahaha.. for girls??.. hahaha.. i dont know.. some guys are even being used by them.. haizz.. ANYWAYS MIM. ADAM LIKES THIS POST (Y).. haha.. so do whats right BRO.. the answer’s in your heart.. the mind only could reason out your answer..

and my other bro rashid has a drum set huh!.. aiseybedah!!.. (Y).. eh rashid u still owe me $100 more dollars for it XD .. Btw dude.. kalau aku gurau2 kau jgn amek hati uh!.. if i made u the BUTT OF JOKES.. tol ak SHAZNI.. hahahaha.. peace rashid.. thanks for reminding me how good am i as a friend.. HAHA.. terharuuuuu. lol!!.. mcm gay *rolls eyes*…

so yeah thats all for now.. hope she COULD STOP thinking negatively and smile cause i like it when she smiles and be happy.. hope he COULD solve things fast.. and hope I CAN PASS BTT NEXT ROUND.. SHAZNI would like this one.. XD

~Humans tend to blame others for the mistakes they have done, they forgot that a step towards being a better person is to learn to admit.

and life continues…

Have you ever had a dream with someone in it, which really exist in reality but when he/she is a stranger for you?.. And what do you do when you see the exact same person from that dream?.. what does it mean?.. some dreams can be ‘satan’s play’ but some can mean something. Hmmmm. I wonder what my dream meant but whatever it was.. SHE HAD A GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR HUH IN REAL LIFE!. LOL!. But it was interesting to know her actually although there were barriers for some reasons. But that don’t really matter cause intentions were definitely clear just to know the ‘mysterious’ girl in my dream and make friends.

Hari raya was normal like all those years nothing different except all grew 1 year older, some fatter, some thinner and well others just stuck with their ol’ size.

Then there was SCHOOL!.. SIAN!.. Can wait to get through with poly life had enough studying!.. want to earn $$$ and get a life.. settle down.. THE WORLDS GOING TO END and yet still have a long way to actually complete life and its ‘enjoyment’.

A lesson i learned recently, “Life is never about winning but it’s about how u actually make the best out of it”. Sometimes winning isn’t everything but when you turn the worst of situations into something positive, in a way it’ll help you solve your greatest problems. And never forget ALLAH though cause he is the one watching over us and actually providing the best for us no matter in whatever situations. We always take for granted for what we have and only treasure them for when their gone. Humans right, normal. HAHA. We all really need to start realizing that we might go off at any time unsuspectedly. ARE WE READY?. That’s the question YOU NEED TO ANSWER FOR YOURSELF.

lalalalala~

*scratching head*..

I dunno where to start actually… kinda bored at home.. its the 5 weeks semester break… wooooo… sounds fun huh.. but its the fasting month.. so cant do anything much actually except helping parents out at home… slack.. sleep… watch TV… i cannot wait for my pay this week.. at least can go out to break fast.. maybe hang out at bazaar.. go shopping.. and FINAL DESTINATION 3D… wooooo… seems nice huh…

i could say that this my ramadhan.. for me it started out with a sin… which i will not reveal. and to be honest.. i just dont  feel the joy or maybe the FEELING of ramadhan.. astaghfirullah.. but im slowly picking things back up again.. there’s a saying what goes up must come down.. RAMADHAN will be so much more meaningful and happening actually if u are really doing it sincerely for ALLAH.. but TEENAGERS.. what do you expect huh… But i notice something… as we age.. when we fast FOOD isnt the number one temptation.. i dunno bout u guys.. but food doesnt seem to come in my mind.. maybe DRINKs. but not food.. what tempts me or most of the people around me is their “nafsu” towards other things.. but its 30-31 days of fasting and discipline.. So to those my friends who fast because PEOPLE do it.. or ASKED to do it. pls knock urselves*im also knocking myself* .. what we do is and SHOULD be sincerely for ALLAH.. thinking about it again.. its for OUR own good.. come on.. for ALLAH.. “..which of the favours of ALLAH will you deny.” taken from ar-rahman.

HUMANS TEND NOT TO REALIZE WHATS GIVEN, BUT WHEN ITS TAKEN AWAY..

PreSSured.

Well, Its been awhile seen i updated this blog. Busy lepak-ing with the regular peeps uhh. Lets start with national day. Me and peeps and cuzz, we celebrated at the swissotel. POWER SIA THE HOTEL. TOP CLASS I TELL U. It was fun. Shouting, RAPING(who was there knows) and we also watched MAN U LOST!. SIAN!. Aft twelve am me and my cuzz decide to lepak around esplanade then there was a f*cikng memorable moment when i saw what i didnt ever wanted to see. Wanna know?. Ask me personally.

Lets skip to the next weekends where i still lepak with my regular peeps. Shazni, Rashid, Mim, Din. We also went shopping siot. To be honest its the first time in my life that i really grabbed the things i want and with the advice from my friends. And it was great really. I wore all the new things i bought. I really looked different. Credits to the opinions from my friends. Without them i’ll be either in black or white. HAHA. I want MORE SHOPPING, but too bad. money dont come easy .

Recently what worries me most is the upcoming TEST. I am afraid might be staying in RP for one more year seyy. Well i can still change things if i start NOW. LITERALLY NOW. Im trying but its just not in me i guess to be studying. =X  SOMEONE KNOCK ME IN THE HEAD PLS!.

Besides school. Hmmm. She interest me. She still immature. She is kind. She understands me. She is willing. HOW?. how to decide?. tell me?.

“i want nobody nobody but YOU”

Hello mates :)

Hello all!..

wait2.  i dont know where to start and how to start?! …*thinking*… ok2. so i guess i’ll start by talking about how this blog exist aite. me and my regular peeps were smoking. when i couldnt remember what we were talking about and the topic BLOGGING just popped up. Last time i used to have one. But i find kinda GAY to be honest. REALLY!. i have always this question in mind, WHY SHOULD GUYS HAVE DIARIES. Then even i myself could’nt answer that question and it was kinda interesting to read about other people’s stories. So maybe i can share a thing or two down here. Anyways whats wrong with being GAY. HAHA!. *winks2*.

So now where do i begin?!. SHAZNI HELP ME?!!!. ok nvm fuck it. lets start talking about my day. Well, in the morning i went to school with her again. She and her jokes and lameness keeps the bus ride short actually. HEHE!. But it turns out we both were kinda tired so there were less crap-ing around. School?!. BORING AS USUAL. The only reason im coming to school is because i want the cert and to please my parents. Im sure u guys know me. LoL. Can i like not talk about school?. Ok lets fast forward……………………………………………………………………………….. OK!. so after school i have my regular ugama classes. To be honest. I’ll just go there, prepare the things like the mats, wires, fans etc2… then i am for BLACKSHOT!(LAN gaming). WOOOOOOTTTTTSSSSS. *perangai setan!*. But what to do i am human aint i?. Repenting aint easy. I’m putting effort. Slowly climbing the ladder to be a HOLY-ER person. I keep falling though. HEH!. But never GIVE UP!. “I’d rather put up with it and try rather than just sit and give up like a loser”. 

“in life there bound to be failures. Success comes when u pick up yourself”. ^_^